Finding Your Path to Stuttering Success.

by StutteringJack

Some time ago, a stuttering teen reader of the Stuttering Brain blog, wrote this frank and open account, of her feelings about her stuttering problem. I quickly typed my thoughts down into a response to her seeking help for stuttering/stammering, which I now want to share with any other teen stutterer who may find these ideas helpful in coping with stuttering/stammering.

Sweet 16’s email

Yeah, I tried a self-help group, attended a stuttering conference, and tried stuttering therapy countless times. I also got an iSpeak SpeechEasy device. I seemed to have stopped stuttering 6 months ago, and it was the greatest days of my life, but then suddenly it came back, and it came back HARD. I can hardly speak a single word without stuttering, and I’ve had to give up countless times in the middle of a sentence I realized I can’t finish. I’m at the point where I would rather lose my voice permanently, so no one would expect me to talk, than to keep struggling and forcing myself to get through one single sentence, and the embarrassment that follows. I know I’m only 16 years old, but I have so much stress from life right now, and I so badly want to go to college and get my life-long dream job, (a computer repair technician- talking is a MAJORLY important part of the job). Life isn’t going to get better, its going to get worse, and there’s going to be more stress. I know there’s no cure. I’ve been told it countless times, and it runs through my head everyday. I know that Pagoclone or any other pills will NEVER, no matter how bad I want them to, take away my stuttering. But right now, my stuttering is so bad, that anything that will improve my speech by 20% will be a miracle to me. If you’ve been stuttering since you were little, too, then you would know what it feels like to think of your whole life ahead of you as hopeless, and a life that will mean nothing to the world. Even just enough voice to tell people what it feels like to stutter would be great. Sure, I could write a book, but I’m not a writer. I have no special abilities at all, and no good looks. That’s why I have to rely on my personality fully. I want to be the person who can accept their stuttering and make people laugh, (in a good way), but I can never see that happening. I can’t even see getting married. And I want to stand at the front of the church wearing a beautiful white dress and be able to at least say, “I do.”

P.S. I’m sorry for writing such a long message, but you’re a stutterer too, (I presume), and you may be the only person in the world who would understand, or in the least bit care. I could write a 50,000 page book on what it feels like to be a stutterer, and the probability of non-stutterers actually understanding it, or even reading it is so low that it’s pointless to waste my time writing it. I wish that some stutterers would just compile a book of how it feels to stutter, and make it interesting enough that people WOULD actually read it. Not laugh at it. I’d be willing, if I could find more people, and if my life was more interesting. Thank you for your blog, and your interest in helping people. I want to be like you and do the same.

Stuttering Jack’s response

I feel for you, and all of us who have severe speech blocking and associated high anxiety, know exactly how you feel at this difficult time in your life, where you have everything ahead of you. I believe that one day you, like some of us, will come to see your particular problem as a blessing rather than a curse. It will certainly shape your life, but you will be the architect of your existence, and you must learn to mould your life with the clay that you have been handed.

Firstly, what you must do is accept what is. You will never be able to change until you first deeply and completely accept the situation, and learn to fully love yourself as you are. Take full responsibility for your situation. You are not a victim to be washed around by the tides of life. It is within your power to change, and the answers for YOU are all out there to be discovered. You just have to seek them out, and it will be the journey, not the destination, that will nourish your soul. Love yourself and love everyone you speak to, as this alone will help wash away the fear of communicating with others.

Secondly, you must stop using negative affirmations and visualisations. These are powerful forces that are currently working against you rather than in your favour. Instead of negative affirmations like, “life isn’t going to get better, it is going to get worse”, “I know there is no cure”, “an improvement will be a miracle”, “whole life ahead of you is hopeless”, “a life that will mean nothing to the world” and visualisations like “I can never see that happening”, “I can’t even see getting married”, I want you to use positive affirmations and visualisations that create, in your mind, the pictures and images that you want to see, in your life, even if they seem such a distant dream to you, and keep them in the forefront of your mind, in big and bright colours. See yourself in that ideal picture, and feel what it would be like to live that dream. Do this every day and you will begin to move towards that, even if it seems so far away.

The most encouraging comment that you made, was that you recently did something to experience total fluency, for an extended period of time, then stuttering returned. Now that tells me, and should tell you, that there is a combination, (or number of combinations), that will unlock stuttering for you. You have found it once, now it is time to start your own little, “Sweet 16 research program”, to find a combination that is going to bring back what you have already shown yourself is possible. Who said stuttering cannot be cured? Stuttering can be cured, but it is an individual path for each person, that can be a short path or a long path. A cure for you may not be total fluency, and your cure may not be found down the same path, that others may choose to take, but you must believe that YOUR cure is achievable. It can be an easy path for some, or it can be an epic journey, but the longer the path to your own personal nirvana, the more you will find out about yourself, as an individual soul, and the more you will find out about life in general. Your cure may not be total fluency, it is more likely to be a level of acceptance, and a method of controlling your problem, but you will find YOUR answer, if you take responsibility for finding the answer and start your search now.

If you would like a few more tips to start you on your journey, here are a few:

1) Realise that you are more than your speech dysfluency. Look for the positive aspects of your nature, and continue to work on improving your non-speech gifts, and work on anything that can improve your confidence and self esteem.

2) Continually behave in as confident and self assured manner as you can.

3) Because the nature of your problem that you have described is, “more than just a tangled tongue”, and is in fact like a vine, that has wrapped itself around almost every aspect of your nature, you are going to have to approach your treatment, in a very systematic way, for it to have a reasonable chance of success. Here are the steps:

a) As mentioned above, acceptance of “what is” is a must.

b) Love yourself for who you are, including the stutter, is a must.

c) Before treatment, you must go out and learn to deliberately stutter. Not in the out of control blocking way that “happens to you”, but in a more relaxed, in control, repetitive way that you create. If the brain believes it has to create stuttering, learn to do it on your terms, not on the stutter’s terms. Stuttering used as a tool, is a completely different experience to the stuttering we are used to, that we feel we have no control over. When you deliberately be dysfluent, you are still, “in the moment”, and can function, where as with out of control stuttering, you are not, “in the moment”, and cannot, in many cases, think clearly. This is a big subject in itself that I cannot go into right now, but you must learn to stutter more fluently, as part of any stuttering treatment program, even if its goal is to eliminate your stuttering.

d) Following your learning and accepting of a controlled stuttering method, to help you when all else fails, you must learn methods to remove the emotions that you have built up in your body, associated with your stuttering. Learning EFT, (, will assist in this area if you want to give it a go. You must also learn to think correctly about the world, and your place in it, in order to try to control your stress and anxiety levels. For this I can recommend Bob Bodenhamer’s book, about a neuro-semantic approach to stuttering treatment. Once your thoughts and emotions have been treated, you are ready to learn to remove your physical speech dysfluency.

e) You need to be very selective in choosing a stuttering treatment program that is right for you. Unfortunately, at this point, no one has undertaken an exercise to easily do this for the different manifestations of stuttering, but it will eventually come, and I am working towards that myself. As learning to control your stuttering is basically a behavioural process, the longer and more intensive the process, the more effective and lasting I have found treatment to be for someone with the level of difficulty that you describe. I would be seeking out an extended intensive program, although the success you will have in one of these, will depend on the level of skill and experience of the clinician involved, and I cannot recommend anything for you here, so you will have to do your own enquiries or a bit of trial and error. Unfortunately the current trend is towards shorter treatment programs which, I believe, is not the way to go in treating the chronic and severe stutterer. Certainly weekly, 1 hour visits, to an SLP will not help what you are describing as the severity of your problem. Intensive courses are not cheap, but that is the level of financial commitment that you are going to have to invest, if you are to start out in a well equipped fashion, on your life journey towards freedom from stuttering. Don’t be discouraged, if one form of treatment has not worked for you in the past, especially if it was not taught in an intensive environment. Finally look for a treatment program that does not end when you walk out the clinic door, following initial treatment. Look for a program that realises that stuttering treatment is a staged process, and therefore offers ongoing retreatment and support at a reasonable cost.

f) What ever speech reshaping program you choose, realise that you will be fluent if you are “CONSCIOUSLY” “AWARE” of ALWAYS applying your learned skills, or you will eventually relapse. This is not true for all people seeking treatment, but once again, for your severity, this will be the level of commitment that you will probably need to apply. Now you will relapse anyway to some degree as we all do, that is for certain, but with each relapse comes a learning experience. A relapse is not a excuse to give up. I believe your journey towards fluency does not really start until you have your first relapse. Relapse is an opportunity to learn about you, and what you have to do to achieve your goals. For most people, a level of acceptance of stuttering is the best answer, as I have written about in my earlier blog postings, but if your goal is fluency, and all that comes from that, you will have to plan what you will do when you relapse.

g) The best relapse management tool is membership of a post treatment support group. You need to gather a list of people who are working with the same speech tools as you, and have the same fluency goals as you. When you relapse, you get together with these people for a day or two or longer, and you go through the process that your learned in your intensive program, and drill the skills back into your brain, and you go out and try again to make it last longer. As mentioned, this is not for everyone, but if you have a severe stutter and it works for you, then that is what you have to do.

h) When you are having success you must start to move outside your comfort zone, and use your ability to speak more fluently. That will also involve its own set of challenges, that I cannot go into here, but joining a Toastmasters or speaking group, has proven to help many people on our journey to achieving more consistent fluency skills.

By all means try Pagoclone when it comes out but as you said, at best, it is likely to make it easier for you to get through your blocks, not completely remove stuttering from your life. Whether that continues to have the same effect over time, or whether you need to keep increasing the dose, and whether you can afford the heavy weekly cost, only time will tell, but undoubtedly it will be where many people will choose to stop on their journey.

Your Speech Easy, as you have seen, works great out of the box, but our brains soon make the timing adjustment to get our stuttering back on track. To be fair, some people have continued to have success with DAF devices, so don’t write them off too quickly, as they are a great gadget to have in your, “box of tricks”, when you feel the need for something like that, I only wish that the distributors of these devices would sell them for under $1,000, which would still give them a profit.

Sweet 16, don’t let your stuttering control your life. You are the captain of your vessel, and you can take it in any direction you want to go, and even if you go through the stormiest of weather, there is always a calm harbour ahead of you, if you just keep moving forward. Many others have taken the same journey as you are now on, so make contact with these people and assure yourself that you are not alone.

Stuttering Jack


  • Elaine

    Dear Stuttering Jack
    I have listened to your answer to Sweet 16 – I had moments of teary eyes, smiles and many moments of wonder and awe at your tenderness, compassion, patience, knowledge and great wisdom. This should be a compulsory “essay” for all prospective SLP students to digest and 'ingest'!!

  • sami

    Oh yes sweet boy you sent me to a long time ago when i was hopeless and without any support especialy here in your age i decided to stop talking in classroom.Many times the teacher ask and i had the response and i couldn't answer .Realy it was hard to bear.I couldn't support my stuttering.Realy it was paifull and i had a low esteem of myself.when iwas 21 i refused an offer of being a french teatcher because of my stuttering.In my twenties i decided to change my attitude towards the probleme.I made a pschotherapy.I became more pragmatic and start to change my thouths and behaviors.The role of the vitim must disapear.I discovered that i am more than just a stutterer .And so on the hope of another being of me emerge.I can touch my soul;i can see the light in the darkness.Now i am 45 and work in a lycee and happy to distruct the stuttering structure and enjoy having this opportunity learn more from myself and from others .And another special thing that stuttering gives me is throughout the word human beings have many things to share toghether in spite of their bliefs and religions.

  • Beinluck

    im moroccan too. hope we can get in touch to talk more broadely about this. here is my email :

  • J J

    That was really Inspiring.. hope, by this time sweet little 16  has got the fluency. all thanks to Stuttering Jack… Im a stammerer too… im working on it. will definetly succeed. 

    thanks again Jack

    Love and Regards,

  • Glpup2000

     Dear Jack,
    I am filled with awe and great emotion as well as gratitude when I read your response to sweet’s 16′s letter about his stuttering.I have kind of patterned sweet 16 stuttering.I ‘m a severe stutter for 45 yrs.About two year a ago I enrolled in an intensive program and had my stuttering improved but right now I am relapsed and felt just like sweet 16.But reading your response, it has moved me to a level of motivation to return to my skills and the speech-easy device.I had almost lost all hope was about to fold up-family,work,school etc etc.Thank so much for your kindling my spirit.

  • Anonymous

    hi i an i new teen on this website and i have a stuttering

  • Anonymous

    i use to stutter all the time and some kides thogut i was from a other state and that made me feel bad a about my self but now i know i am not a alone

  • Anonymous

    Hi. Monkeyboy’ yea it’s true that kids can be cruel. How is your stutter today ?

  • ThatRandomGuy

    All you just remember that the President of the United States also has a stuttering problem, and look at where he’s at now. I bet he got picked on and everyone that did it is regretting it knowing that they can never be like him.

  • Gem E. Yabut, Jr.

    If there are stutterers in the Philippines, please ask to get touch with me, Gem E. Yabut, Jr. cellphone No. 09209651143, so we could form a group in the Philippines. Thank you.  

  • nicky

    what a geat response to sweet 16
    our son is 11 and his stutter is getting. a little worse. does anybody know if playing the playstation would make a stutter worse?

  • Lilly Bishop

    I’m 14 and I’m a server stutterer. I hate it when people ask me if i forgotten my name just because I get stuck on the word Lilly. Urgg…people are soo rude. I don’t really let my stuttering get to me, but sometimes I get down on my self and ask God why me, why did you give me the same speech problem as my uncle who is in jail right now?! But I know he has plans for me so I’ll just have to wait and see. I had an ARD meeting for school and since i’m in High School in 11th grade there is a course for public speaking, and it is requierd to take in order to graduate, well they want to not put me in that course just because of my speech problem, I DON”T want to be treated differntly I mean come on yeah it may take a little more time for me to talk but I can still do it. Right?

  • christy

    Hi i am stutterer and i have live with most of life. People will put us down and never let us climb the ladder of success as they are afraid that they will be defeated and use words to belittle us . What is need is know is what is our goal in life and come what may we can achieve it. Never mind the taunts and discouraging words by others , we can over come , just assume they do not exists for our missing ability , we develop another ability and we can shine in it. I am guy used to believe and very convinced that I will never get married as the society does not accept us we are. There somebody in world made for you and believe it. if you believe in negative thoughts then you that will be emmebed with it and you will not come out of it. Do not care for the world and reflect what is your strenght and work on your weakness. Don’t blind and deaf surivive and live with respect. Do not lose your confidence and believe that you can achieve anything , no sky is too high and you must enroll in a porgram that will help rid of your stutturering probelm and you must believe in yourself that you can achieve it. and see how perpection of world changes and never let yourself yourself down come what may.

  • christy

    the worst day was when my kids asked why is my father like this , why he not as usual father. it hit me badly and i could not take it. I had to explain why i am like this as now i speak normally , there is few occasion that i even cannot speak. Today I am able to stand on my feet and found meaning of my life .

  • Dennis Napoli

    A lot of people are like “Sweets 16.” I have been with many people with stuttering problem, and they also do feel depressed and lonely. Stuttering Jack is right. Don’t let stuttering control your life. Don’t let those negative thoughts cloud your mind. Believe that you can achieve something despite your situation right now.